Do you ever feel like people will forget about you?
Like, not in a little way. You feel like people won’t remember you exist unless you’re talking to them, in their bubbles, that kind of thing.
Often people tell me that they think I don’t like them, when actually it’s the complete opposite. And I’m terrified by that. Because I’m quiet and anxious people think that I don’t want them around. And it happens all the time. So I’ve started giving people presents every time I see them so that they know, yeah, I do like you.
But this is causing people to think I’m clingy. Which, to be fair, I am. But they don’t like that either. I feel like I can’t get anything right. People come and they go pretty quickly. And I’m getting exhausted by it. I want someone to stick around. I want someone who won’t just block me out of the blue. I want someone who likes me just as much as I like them.
I’m starting to worry that it won’t happen though, that the friends I make and the boys I date will run out soon and I’m going to be alone again. Is it me? Is it them? It’s probably both. But I’m worried about it.